Pain

OK so yesterday I went to practice shot put for track. First time for since last school year. So I have a few achs and pains. Its not just the throwing. I had to stretch also my couch made me do the 12 lbs shot-put when the girls usually throw 8 lbs shot-put so that way when I throw the 8 lbs it will go farther.

Then on top of that I am just getting done with the every month aches and pains if you know what I mean. Plus I ran for about 15 minutes today so I just hurt really bad my back mainly.

Love

I am trying to decide which guy would end  up being the best one for me. I have been thinking of this all weekend and really I just don't know. I really don't want to end up hurting them or them hurting me.

One of them is a very great guy and I know him very well. He is one of my best friends in the whole world, and I really don't want to ruin that. The other one is another great guy. I don't know him as well but I can tell he seems like a good guy. Also I am not as good of friends with him as I do the other one.

I am just lost and confused. Everyone that I've talk to told me to follow my heart, its not that easy when you have two great guys to choice from. There is a part of me that is telling me to go for the best friend that I've know for forever. Then again the other part is scared to ruin the friendship we have if he doesn't feel the same, and I really don't want to do that.

The other guy he's sweet and all, but I don't know him as well so I don't know. I just want someone to tell me what I should do because right now I really don't know anymore. So please if you have any advice then let me know because I will take any advice and think about it.

5 things I can't stand

1. I cant stand when people think its funny to make fun of others. Those people can go fall off a bridge.

2. I cant stand how some people have to mess with your head and make you think one thing when really its not true at all

3. I cant stand fighting at all. I try not to start fights. I would rather be able to settle things without yelling and screaming.

4. I cant stand how some people don't understand where I'm coming from when I try to tell them something.

5. I cant stand how some people can be rude.

Date went down drain not literally.

Well its Friday night about to go to bed. I am suppose to get up to go to a Speech Meet tomorrow. I have to be at the school by 6:30. Also I was suppose to have a date to the movies tomorrow when I get back but that got canceled.

Well it was suppose to be like a triple date type thing. Kinda like double date but 3 couples besides 2. It was with this guy my friend is trying to hook me up with. Yes I know this guy but I don't know him very well. Well anyway I should really go to bed. so goodnight everyone.

30 things about me

here is a list of 30 things about me

1. I go to Private school
2. I am a Senior
3. I live with my dad
4. I lost my mom when I was 15
5. I have an older sister
6 I have a twin brother
7. My favorite animal is dogs,
8. I am going to be a nurse
9. I love Ghost Adventures.
10. I love Wrestling
11. My favorite Wrestler is John Cena and Randy Ortan.
12. I love being a thrower in track
13. I love teaching kids.
14. I love country music
15 I love to sing
16. I have a nephew
17. I love art
18. I have the best GAC family
19. I love Zak Baggens
20. I lived in the same town my whole life
21. I went to public school tell the second semester of 9th grade
22. I live in Nebraska
23. planing on moving to Iowa
24. I live a block away from school
25. I have the best guy friend ever that I love to death.
26. I love to write poetry.
27. I love to dance.
28. I have always wanted to kick box
29. I am happy I am about done with school.
30, I am a very caring person

So if you want to know anything else of have a question about something I listed let me know.

Weekend

Well my weekend pretty much sucked. First of my heart and my brain has been fighting with each other over a guy. I say yes I love him, but I just don't think I can love him the way he deserves to be loved, not right now anyway.

Then last night I found out that a friend of mine who was 5 months pregnant got really sick. So the doctors had to do a C-section to get the baby. So pretty much the baby is 4 months to early. They have all these different tubes and a ventilator. The baby was only 1 lbs and 1 oz.

Anyway thats how my weekend went. You can say it pretty much sucked. Anyway back to school tomorrow so I am going to bed. Goodnight everyone I will post another blog as soon as I can. So goodbye for now.

Venting

I haven't post in a while, my life has gone to hell, I am not going there. I just want people to understand where I am coming from. I just hate the fact that I am surrounded by so many people every day at school and there isn't one person I can actually talk to. I just am about had it with this shit. If I have to go one more day with this shit I will break down crying.

Sorry all I just need to vent. Other then the crap at school my life has been pretty good. Well I guess this week wasn't as bad as the week before. I am just hoping next week is going to be even better.

Week

OK haven't done a blog since Tuesday night. Well Wednesday  and Tuesday had a whole shit full of drama. Friday yesterday and today wasn't bad. The thing about yesterday is that the friend that I told you guys about the one in the car accident that died. I went by the Graveyard yesterday. That was the first time since he passed about 14 months ago that I went by that graveyard and or went there. So kind of emotional. Another thing is that when it comes to my love life right now its really confusing. I just hate it. Anyway thats it for now.

Drama

OMG drama has taken over my school life. Gosh everyone we are Senior's can't we just all grow up please. If I could tell you all what was going on at school it's crazy. All I got to say is that my class needs to grow the heck up. I just want to spend the last 5 months of high school Drama Free, but no. If it doesn't stop soon I will pull my hair out. Anyway the best thing about the last two days is that I got a hug by two of my favorite people, and realized how much my GAC family loves me, and how much I love them.

Last Night

Well last night I was talking to a couple of friends on Skype, and I was going threw pictures I had. So I came across a picture of a friend I lost about 14 months ago. He was 14 at the time.

He lived out in the country. So he was able to drive to school. He was driving to school, and didn't have his seatbelt on. He went from a dirt road and turned on to a smooth road and there was ice on the road, and he rolled his car three times. 

He went to the school I use to go to before I went to a Private school. So it the town is about 20 miles away from where I live now. Anyway, I didn't find out tell that night when another one of my friends told me on Facebook. I couldn't believe it, this kids was born on the same day I was. Just 3 years younger, He always had something sarcastic to say.

So last night, I was thinking about him. I knew he was in a better place now, I know that. Have you guys ever lost someone and you think about them and all of a sudden you hear there voice, or feel there touch. I did last night. I felt him put his hand on my back, and whisper in my ear. Abby I'm here, I will always be here. That just surprised me. I never had something like that happen, then again it was also comforting knowing he will be here for me.

Well there's my story about what happened to me last night. He was a great kids,  he will always be missed by me and his family for sure. Thanks for reading. 

Graduation

People ask me all the time if I am excited about leaving High School. Tell you the truth I'm not. I am scared to death to leave. I don't want to go to the next Chapter in my life. I really don't, but really I have to because its my time to move on from this Chapter in my life and go to College.

Art Class

Well today something funny/embarrassing happened. In Art its just 5 of us Seniors, 2 girls 3 guys. So one of the guys had a sweatshirt on and then a t-shirt on underneath, and he went to take his sweatshirt off so he wouldn't get anything on it, I looked up right when it  happened, and his t-shirt came up a little bit. It came up right when I went to look up, and he was right there and I started laughing like OMG did that just happen and he was like what. Where friends so it was all cool. Cant get much embarrassing then me seeing him in footy pajamas, don't ask.

Brother, Education, Job, Comment

Well everyone guess what, I am a twin. A twin brother that is. He can be a pain in the butt, but the times I can use someone to listen to me, I know he will. I am glad I have him. He is like me when it comes to having ADHD.  For those who don't have ADHD most of the time its not fun trust me. Also when it comes to school, I have to work harder then the other people in my class. Part of it is because ADHD. I cant concert as well, also because I just work at a slower pace. I do my the best I can though.

I will have to work my way through it, but this summer I am going to take a six to eight week class to get my CNA, and then starting in the Fall, I am going to get my Associates Degree to be an RN, so only 2 years. That the plan for now. Hopeful I will be able to progress further in my education, but for know I would be happy with an Associates Degree. After my two years I am planing on getting a job at the hospital where I live. I am so lucky to live in a town that has a hospital that takes people that just graduated out of Collage, because a lot of hospitals wants people with a couple of years under there belt. 

Anyway, I just wanted to say good night. I will post again as soon as I can. I hope that you have learned more about me, if anyone has questions fell free to ask in a comment and I will try to answer the best I can. 

Long day

OK. well its only 4:47 my times and its already a long firkin day. My morning was half way decent, then afternoon came, and I went home for Lunch and I had and hour and a half so OK I stayed home for that long, then I go back because I had accounting at 1:45 this afternoon. This is when it got bad. I was doing my class work and I just started getting this headache, so I was like I only have and hour and a half left you will make it, and I did. So now I got home, and now I have a stomach ache so it was a long day.  Oh, and I did good with my diet yesterday by the way. I will let you guys know next Wednesday how much I lost.

Healthy

Hey, so everyone I am going to do this weight loss thing. The thing is, I am always wanting to, but never find the  time to exercise or just to lazy to do it. So, I'm going to do this, and I will update you guys every so often to tell you guys what's going on.

There are two reasons why I want to. One is the fact that my sister is going to get married this summer, and I would like to lose weight for that. Also another reason is, because I have always want to get into shape, but every time I try I fail. So this time I am going to lose this weight, and going to keep it off.

So, this time I am going to do this thing. I'm not going to stay like this. I just want to get down to a health weight. I don't want to be super skinny. I just want to get down to a healthy weight is all.

Hum

Hum, the things I wonder sometimes. I wonder why the heck people have to hurt others. Really does it make someone really feel better when they hurt someone. Especially when they never done anything to you. I hate being hurt by others for no reason. I don't like this fact, but its true, but another thing also, I know for a fact is that there is always someone thats worse off then I am.

Anyway, I do have a reason why I'm doing this is because I was hurt by someone I thought I trusted. I am not going to get into that though because he doesn't deserve to be talk about. Anyway, like I said, there is really no reason for anyone to hurt anyone else. I also don't believe to hurt the people that hurt me. I believe to just move on and let go, especially when they hurt me badly to where I cant forgive them. If someone is sorry they will have to prove to me that they are. 

Anyway, that is what I think about people hurting others. There is no reason to hurt other's. If they do and they say they wont hurt you again make them prove it to you, and if they cant then they don't deserve being your friend. I would just push them away from my life.

My first blog

OK well everyone this is my first time blogging. I'm 18 right now and currently a Senior in High School. Its been close to one of the best years of my life.

It's been a bad few days, so I figured I would start a blog. Why now, because I just figured it would be fun to maybe starting a blog.

Anyway you may be wondering why I use seester93. Well the seester part of it is because me and my sister always call each other seester. With the 93 part of it is because I was born in 1993. So thats why that is.

Anyway this may be a bad blog, but I just would like to inform people a little bit about myself with this blog.