Pain

OK so yesterday I went to practice shot put for track. First time for since last school year. So I have a few achs and pains. Its not just the throwing. I had to stretch also my couch made me do the 12 lbs shot-put when the girls usually throw 8 lbs shot-put so that way when I throw the 8 lbs it will go farther.

Then on top of that I am just getting done with the every month aches and pains if you know what I mean. Plus I ran for about 15 minutes today so I just hurt really bad my back mainly.

Love

I am trying to decide which guy would end  up being the best one for me. I have been thinking of this all weekend and really I just don't know. I really don't want to end up hurting them or them hurting me.

One of them is a very great guy and I know him very well. He is one of my best friends in the whole world, and I really don't want to ruin that. The other one is another great guy. I don't know him as well but I can tell he seems like a good guy. Also I am not as good of friends with him as I do the other one.

I am just lost and confused. Everyone that I've talk to told me to follow my heart, its not that easy when you have two great guys to choice from. There is a part of me that is telling me to go for the best friend that I've know for forever. Then again the other part is scared to ruin the friendship we have if he doesn't feel the same, and I really don't want to do that.

The other guy he's sweet and all, but I don't know him as well so I don't know. I just want someone to tell me what I should do because right now I really don't know anymore. So please if you have any advice then let me know because I will take any advice and think about it.

5 things I can't stand

1. I cant stand when people think its funny to make fun of others. Those people can go fall off a bridge.

2. I cant stand how some people have to mess with your head and make you think one thing when really its not true at all

3. I cant stand fighting at all. I try not to start fights. I would rather be able to settle things without yelling and screaming.

4. I cant stand how some people don't understand where I'm coming from when I try to tell them something.

5. I cant stand how some people can be rude.

Date went down drain not literally.

Well its Friday night about to go to bed. I am suppose to get up to go to a Speech Meet tomorrow. I have to be at the school by 6:30. Also I was suppose to have a date to the movies tomorrow when I get back but that got canceled.

Well it was suppose to be like a triple date type thing. Kinda like double date but 3 couples besides 2. It was with this guy my friend is trying to hook me up with. Yes I know this guy but I don't know him very well. Well anyway I should really go to bed. so goodnight everyone.

30 things about me

here is a list of 30 things about me

1. I go to Private school
2. I am a Senior
3. I live with my dad
4. I lost my mom when I was 15
5. I have an older sister
6 I have a twin brother
7. My favorite animal is dogs,
8. I am going to be a nurse
9. I love Ghost Adventures.
10. I love Wrestling
11. My favorite Wrestler is John Cena and Randy Ortan.
12. I love being a thrower in track
13. I love teaching kids.
14. I love country music
15 I love to sing
16. I have a nephew
17. I love art
18. I have the best GAC family
19. I love Zak Baggens
20. I lived in the same town my whole life
21. I went to public school tell the second semester of 9th grade
22. I live in Nebraska
23. planing on moving to Iowa
24. I live a block away from school
25. I have the best guy friend ever that I love to death.
26. I love to write poetry.
27. I love to dance.
28. I have always wanted to kick box
29. I am happy I am about done with school.
30, I am a very caring person

So if you want to know anything else of have a question about something I listed let me know.

Weekend

Well my weekend pretty much sucked. First of my heart and my brain has been fighting with each other over a guy. I say yes I love him, but I just don't think I can love him the way he deserves to be loved, not right now anyway.

Then last night I found out that a friend of mine who was 5 months pregnant got really sick. So the doctors had to do a C-section to get the baby. So pretty much the baby is 4 months to early. They have all these different tubes and a ventilator. The baby was only 1 lbs and 1 oz.

Anyway thats how my weekend went. You can say it pretty much sucked. Anyway back to school tomorrow so I am going to bed. Goodnight everyone I will post another blog as soon as I can. So goodbye for now.

Venting

I haven't post in a while, my life has gone to hell, I am not going there. I just want people to understand where I am coming from. I just hate the fact that I am surrounded by so many people every day at school and there isn't one person I can actually talk to. I just am about had it with this shit. If I have to go one more day with this shit I will break down crying.

Sorry all I just need to vent. Other then the crap at school my life has been pretty good. Well I guess this week wasn't as bad as the week before. I am just hoping next week is going to be even better.