Bulling

So I posted a video about from youtube a while back about bulling and the reason why is because I am big on trying to prevent bulling. I don't think I would be so big on preventing bulling if I wasn't bullied growing up. I wasn't ever afraid to be myself so people hated me for that. Some people would be like oh well get over it, but you know in Junior High and the first semester of my freshman year I went to a K-12 school, I would go home crying almost every night because of it. That was when it was really bad, but the second semester of my Freshman year I moved about 20 miles away to live with my dad because my mom passed away the bugging of my Freshman Year, I felt more accepted there then I did at my old school. OK I will admit my Freshman year wasn't as bad but I was still hated on and on top of my mom passing away and everything I went threw when she died I was not emotionally stable. I was one of those people that bottle things up and then when I finally had it I would go into my room and cry so no one would see me, but now I been getting help and I can cry, I understand that crying isn't a sign of weakness its a sign of being strong long enough. So anyone who reads this if you been bullied your not alone and if you need someone to talk let me know leave a comment or something and I will try helping the best I can. 

Graduated

So I haven't posted anything in a couple weeks. Well I am done with High School. I am happy, and sad, but I know that no matter what is going on I can count on my class to be there if I need them.

They are my best friends, they are my family. They will always be family, some of them may be annoying sometimes and I want to murder them, but no family is complete without some of those people that you want to murder sometimes. So pretty much that is all as of right not so talk to Yawl later.

Track ending = crying

So today I thought I had a week left of track, but guess what it's done for me anyway. I went to Track practice like normal and we had a girls track meeting and the head girls couch was like its just Varsity from now on and no Junior Varsity and I am Junior Varsity. I just started crying and I stood up and turned away so no one would see me crying and one of the Assistant couches was like Abby sit and she was like what's wrong I was like I don't want to be done and the Assistant couch was like thats a good thing that means we did something right.

Then the Head Couch was like Abby do you want to stay and help with the throwers and I shock my head yes because at this point I could barley talk. She was like you can stay then if you want. I thought to myself thank God.

Then a little later after warm ups and stuff the Shotput throwing couch finally showed up, because he was running late. the Disc's couch went up to him and told him that JV was done because I don't think any of the Assistant couches knew that it was just Varsity for the rest of the season. He looked at me and I just got done crying so anything could make me start crying and I did start crying again and the Disc's couch told the Shotput couch that I could stay and Mike the Shot put couch was trying to make me laugh so I would stop crying and I laughed a little bit then gave him a hug until I finally stopped crying.

The reason why I cried because this is my last year for Track and I never felt this way about any other sport I tried. I loved Track.